Should I Write About My Abusive Childhood or Mental Illness? #trauma #writing about rape

Hey! I am giving this post a content warning for brief references to suicidal ideation, abuse, rape, and child rape and sexual assault. If you have PTSD from these experiences and you’re not having a good day today, please give it a pass. Take care of yourself!

One of the big questions that comes up for writers is, “Is it okay if I write about this?” You might wonder about if it’s okay to write about your own life—which might include trauma, child abuse, or mental illness. You also might worry if it’s okay to write about trauma or mental illness you haven’t experienced. After all, you want to get it right.

 

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I’m going to talk about writing about mental illness and trauma you don’t have, and then I’m going to talk about writing about mental illness and trauma that’s a part of your own experience.

 

Writing About Mental Illness You Don’t Have

My supernatural romance novella Wicked Garden is an example of an author writing about a mental illness she does not have. I’ve known two people with the type of OCD the hero has—which is not the “neat freak” type I’ve usually seen in fiction, TV, and movies. One of these people was a friend, and the other was someone I met years ago.

 

WICKED GARDEN by Bryn Donovan

 

(PS: this novella does contain some sexy content and a ghost, though, so skip it if you don’t like either of those things!)

I think I wrote a character with this type of OCD—which plagues a person with fears that they’re going to harm others, or perhaps have even already done so—partly because it dovetailed nicely with the ghost story, and partly because I felt the public perception of OCD was very limited.

Because I’d known two people with this kind of mental illness, and I’d heard them talk a lot about it, I felt fairly confident writing a character with the same struggle. But if you don’t have firsthand experience with a mental illness or with anyone who has it, I think it’s important to do a lot of research. Read nonfiction books and memoirs. However, it’s true that mental illnesses present themselves in different individuals in different ways, so it’s also okay if your character isn’t a textbook example.

I think the other thing to be careful with here is that the mental illness doesn’t define the character’s whole personality. My character, Aaron Cavanaugh, isn’t just a troubled soul. He’s funny, empathetic, and charming. He has a steady job, he’s close to his family, and he has a rescue dog named Hank. In fact, he’s not someone that people who necessarily expect to have struggles with mental illness—which is often the case!

 

Writing About Trauma You Haven’t Experienced

If you’re writing about child abuse, rape, or other trauma you haven’t experienced, the same advice about doing your research applies.

I think you also want to be very clear about your intentions. Why are you writing about it? What effect do you hope it will have on the audience?

Weirdly, “Is it okay if I write about rape?” is a question I see from young and middle-aged men on writing forums about once a week. When I’ve seen it, it’s always been about a girl or woman being raped. I don’t know why this is such a common question, but I’d say with this one in particular, it’s good to be clear about your intentions.

 

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When you write about child sex abuse, rape, and so on, it’s actually different then writing about medieval torture or other types of barbarities. If someone gets their hand chopped off by an enemy, for example, you may not even have one reader who has experienced the same thing. If a character is molested as a child or raped, many readers will have experienced the same thing, which is why it calls for more sensitivity.

I’ve seen so many people who want to write about rape and child sexual abuse survivors who are afraid of sex, who can never be in a romantic relationship, and so on, as a result. This may very well be the case for some survivors, but it’s certainly not the case for most of them.

 

Writing About Mental Illness or Trauma You Have Experienced

Many people are interested in writing memoirs about their traumatic or abusive childhood, or about their mental illness. They’re not likely to get them published, because there’s not much of a market for memoirs like this. One of the reasons for this is that abusive childhoods and mental illness are, unfortunately, not that unusual. However, a writer might have other personal reasons to write a memoir like this. They might feel compelled to get it down even knowing it’s probably never going to get published.

When writing about other trauma, even in the context of fiction, many authors wonder what’s okay and not okay to write in terms of how it will affect their family relationships. Ann Lamott has famously written: “You own everything that happened to you. Tell your stories. If people wanted you to write warmly about them, they should have behaved better.”

Nonetheless, writing about some things may affect your current relationships. There are consequences to what we choose to write about, and in the end, every author needs to make their own decisions about what life experiences they’re going to use.

 

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In an upcoming book, I am going to write about a character who’s a child rape survivor, like I am. This is Sophie Karakov, who’s mentioned in The Phoenix Codex—she’s Jonathan’s ex who went AWOL. I didn’t exactly set out to have this become part of the narrative, but I think my intention there is to show that the secrecy surrounding the trauma can be as damaging as the trauma itself.

In the end, when we’re writing about serious and disturbing subjects, whether from our own experience or not, we have a great opportunity. We can help readers understand other people’s struggles…or we can let them know they’re not alone. And we can show how much a person can survive and overcome.

Because these are such sensitive subjects, please avoid any graphic details in the comments, but I’d love to hear about your own thoughts about writing about trauma and mental illness. If you’ve experienced these things yourself, my heart goes out to you, and give yourself credit for all the ways you’ve thrived, anyway. Thanks for reading, and I wish you the best with your writing!

 

 

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